The Time is NOW!!!!

Ok, this is it,, I've made a massive jump, I'm in feet first and pushing off the bottom! I'm going to do it, I'm going to lose the weight and gain my sanity back.

One of THOSE Days!

Never never never never never never never!!!! I mean NEVER get on the scale when you are already down and depressed, because it is NOT going to help you feel better! It's going to make you want to throw your scale out the pretty glass window that you can't afford to break in your cheesy little bathroom. I've been hovering around one weight for weeks, 1 pound up, 1 pound down, 2 pounds down,,, 3 pounds up! My yo yo string needs to break on the down side!

Just Like it Says,, FF and FF!

I hate it, I hate being 50 and fat. I was always so skinny people thought I had an eating disorder,,, so I was actually happy when I started gaining a little a weight. I was 37, it was about time! Problem was it didn't stop! My weight gain turned out to be a medical issue, my system just shut down and died. I went through menopause in less than 4 months, had 2 hot flashes, had no idea what was going on.

Now it's time to recover! It's past time, but my son is gone now, he's being deployed, I'm unhappy in too many ways, and very happy in other ways. The underlying issue is my life is spinning out of control, I need that control back and maybe with this blog, and some support, I can make it happen!